February 2012
5 posts
“In order for Bruce Wayne to fund his high-tech covert military campaign against...”
– Peter Rollins (via azspot)
I've never been more confused.
Every night I dream these overwhelmingly realistic dreams that make me believe that I’ve already lived this life once. That I made vastly different choices the first time around. I feel emotions much more vividly than in any waking state and I carry deep seeded, enormous feelings for the people I see in my dreams. This confuses me immensely because I struggle- and have always struggled- to...
Hey.
Hey. Hey.
I’m very *very* drunk. There is lots of stuff I need to tell you. Lots. Woah. Youve no idea. My life is a facade until I die. I like to think I empathize. But do I really?
January 2012
8 posts
Bad dreams again.
Well, they’re more like nightmares really. But every night? fuck. Sleep brings no solace and daylight comes too soon.
I miss you. Most of the time the feeling that it gives me is deep, quiet, full; the ceaseless rumble of a distant waterfall; the magnitude of its power comforts and anchors my soul. Then occasionally a certain wind blows, the din hushes into void and then some trigger- a song we loved to, the feel a warm blanket, the scent of your hair- ignites my soul in a frenzy of emotions and I become engulfed...
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Too many thoughts burning through my skull. I think too much. I feel too much. This will be my end.
December 2011
8 posts
“It’s goodbye, but we lean forward to our next crazy adventures beneath the...”
– Kerouac
1 tag
Holy shit
“You would sell your soul to the devil if you knew it would save your ends.”
November 2011
10 posts
3 tags
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I got intensely drunk last night.
I am incredibly Hungover and I will probably be shitfaced again before today is through. It’s okay though, I’m 21. This is how life works. Right?
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As I puffed on my cigar on the porch tonight,
I realized that I Love you. And that I will probably always Love you. But here I am, and there you are. Separate. And it hurts to know that it will probably always be that way. But at the end of everyday, I will still send all of my Love to you. Wherever you may be. I Love You.
“I am terrified by this dark thing that sleeps in me.”
– Sylvia Plath (via tabularasae)
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Sometimes
I feel like I’m going to explode. And sometimes I’m disappointed when I don’t.
I feel too much and too little- all in the same day!
Despite having an awesome job,
And more obvious life direction then I know what to do with, I have never been more confused about who I am and where I belong in the world. It’s almost like I don’t really know who I am anymore. I’m a collection of random attributes and default qualities….where is that time machine?!
October 2011
4 posts
2 tags
You know
When I hear about my friends’ conquests, I feel sad for every person involved. So sad. I feel too much.
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Does anyone else
Just want to dance? Like seriously.
“We risk engaging in idolatry, not only when we worship false gods but also when...”
– G.K. Chesterton
September 2011
11 posts
3 tags
“If by a “Liberal” they mean someone who looks ahead and not behind, someone who...”
– John F. Kennedy
“It is true that the structure of the Gospels is similar to that of mythology, in...”
– Rene Girard
“We shall awaken from our dullness and rise vigorously toward justice. If we fall...”
– Hildegard of Bingen
3 tags
“Those who believe that history is a progressive march toward human...”
– Chris Hedges, When Atheism Becomes Religion
This bugs me. What’s wrong with believing we can be better as a whole? We’re beings that are always adapting and learning and we will probably reach a point when the problems we know today will be gone, but there will be completely different-...
“I heard there was a sacred chord that David played and it pleased the Lord, but...”
– Im too drunk to look it up.
A good friend wrote on my FB wall.
Made me feel like shit. SHIT. I already hate myself, now I have people I love telling me I dont have time for them anymore. That Ive changed. Well. I have changed. Alot. All of us have. I mean, ever since D took himself, Ive been more closed off. Since ive lived in Vacaville i’ve been more career centric. Anything that happens on any given day has an impact on life. I dont think about my old...
Jesus. Jesus and a baseball bat.
Im drunk again. The means to my end. And I’m scared of myself. And now its all the same, the faces and names, and I’m scared of myself again.
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IT'S SEPTEMBER 2ND
IT’S FUCKING SEPTEMBER 2ND.
IT’S SEPTEMBER FUCKING 2ND!
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Dreams
Last night I dreamed I got married.
When I woke up I was scared that I had really gotten married. Woah.
August 2011
14 posts
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I’ve dreamed about you every night this past week, but when I wake up, I find myself struggling to remember exactly what I dreamed about. It seems that these dreams are the only peace I can afford.
“It seems to me that it is a minority that gets the true and full gospel. We just...”
– Richard Rohr
Well I'm stoked.
I saw a photograph and Oh My God feelings!
Feeeelings.
I saw something and got butterflies!
I havent felt anything other than empty for so long but my word, Feelings!!!
